In Wanam there was the one river the
colour of anthracite
and a smell straight out of the pickled-egg
jar,
a warren of shops, gangways and a pub (the
sign read ‘Pap’)
with its two waria owners offering sugary
refreshment
and a mind-blow. The whole yawning village
rested on planks above the sludge, with
ropes and ladders
descending to where the boats were
tethered,
one marked ‘Bintang Laut’ and the other
‘Polisi’.
This was a town subdued to its elements,
and they were one, and it was without
radiance, being toxic.
Every fish in the sea seemed to be in the
Chinese processing plant
back of town, ready to be dismantled and
spirited away
for reassembly in another part of the planet;
the fish complacently waiting, in solid frozen
blocks.
Walking there as one of the visiting party
I suddenly felt uncomfortable, almost
ashamed
to be standing on the walls of Dis in this
vortex of immensity.
And there was the treatment centre, with its
benches
and two sickbeds, the only emergency care
in any direction.
But who would be left to treat, when the
land of mud
sucks everything into the sweet shared
slime
of shiftless penultimate floors and landing
stages,
and the world is an improvisation, where
our feet might be?
The ferryman was waiting there, among
such base matter,
ready to escort us back, if not to civilisation
at least to the district officers who spoke on
our behalf,
though the sea had drained away, weighted
by lunar indifference,
and left a vista of such stunningly
featureless flatness
only laughter could absorb the infinite
slippage.
Low tide, it seemed, in our world of excess
and depletion.