Born on 4 June 1985. Two parents, a big house, and lots of expectations. Brought up the proper way: sent off to boarding school, rugby, cars, golf, Ralph Lauren polo shirts, pinkie rings, pink trousers, and wine. A man’s man. Rugby made him feel he belonged and was his only acceptable emotional outlet. Married in his twenties to a woman he thought he should marry. Working in a career that made money but had no value. Up to his neck in debt, school fees to pay, and cars to maintain. Work and more work and not too much to say. Friends lived far away. Keep it all inside. Even the sexual abuse he experienced at school, which no one expected or suspected. He tried …