The interviews demonstrated the considerable internalised impact of the rUTIs — how the women felt about the infections and how they thought about themselves in response to rUTIs.
Emotional impact
The women’s accounts revealed an intense emotional response to rUTI, including fear and dread about recurrences:
‘Well, as soon as I feel that there is an infection, I take them [over-the-counter cystitis powders] right away because my fear became kind of overwhelming because it is so awful.’ (Interview [Int] 2, 66–75 years, 3–5 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
They could feel controlled by the recurrences:
‘It just controls my life on a daily basis. I think it doesn’t help because obviously in my mind as well, I'm probably thinking, “Oh, am I going to get one today?” … “Am I going to be OK today?”… Because one minute I can be fine and then the next minute …’ (Int 6, 26–35 years, 1–2 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
Some women worried about the effects of the recurrences and feeling ‘reliant’ on antibiotics to resolve the infections:
‘But I always was terrified in case if I couldn’t get rid of it, was it going to affect my kidneys, was it going to affect my liver or anything else as well, you know. Because you don’t know what the long-term prognosis is.’ (Int 22, 46–55 years, 1–2 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
‘But I've become dependent on them [antibiotics] which is bad … Why I've become really dependent on them because I'm just scared all the time really.’ (Int 6, 26–35 years, 1–2 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
Embarrassment was a common feature of the women’s experience:
‘the first thing we notice is ... the smell because I used to get really embarrassed going to the loo at work or at Uni or at school ... it just smelled really bad.’ (Int 25, 19–25 years, 3–5 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
‘I was actually away with a group of girls … that was painful/embarrassing, but they all sort of knew because they're all ladies. “Oh, she’s off to the loo again”.’ (Int 26, 56–65 years, 3–5 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
Women’s views of themselves as UTI ‘sufferers’
The interviews demonstrated how the women questioned the validity of their experience of the condition. Several of the women wondered why their experience of UTI was more painful and difficult than that of other women they knew:
‘other women have it, but then sometimes it’s frustrating because they say they have it and then they keep going and doing stuff, and I'm like, “God, I can't; I'm literally crippled …” that used to frustrate me a bit because I said, “Why am I getting it worse, what am I doing wrong?”.’ (Int 30, 46–55 years, 3–5 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
Their situation also made them feel judged, when others, including family members, did not believe a UTI could make them feel so unwell:
‘Like I think people [think ...] a water infection’s a water infection, get on with it; like that’s how I feel people [think].’ (Int 20, 19–25 years, 6 or more UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
‘Well my mum … has had two [UTIs] and she'd never ever had them before. She’s, “Now I know what you were going on about when you wasn’t well” … even she didn’t understand, you know.’ (Int 22, 46–55 years, 1–2 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
Among the women there was reflection about whether they qualified as an rUTI ‘sufferer’. This was particularly the case where they judged themselves as suffering less than others:
‘I mean I don’t think I've had it as badly as some people get it, but when you do get it it’s not something you can forget about.’ (Int 13, 66–75 years, 1–2 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
For one woman an invitation to take part in the trial from her GP was felt to be a validation of herself as someone who suffers with rUTIs:
‘Like when I got the letter about taking part … I was like, “Oh, my god, like they’ve chose me, like wow,” like I was like really happy … I felt quite special because I thought, “Actually, someone’s realising how many water infections I do get”.’ (Int 20, 19–25years, 6 or more UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
Women’s actions as ‘triggers’ for rUTIs
The women also examined what part their own actions and behaviours had to play in rUTI episodes. Mentioned by many of the women as ‘triggers’ were not drinking enough water, drinking alcohol, having sex, the effect of stress, and, more rarely, personal hygiene. Being given information by HCPs about actions and behaviours that might play a part in rUTIs made them feel a sense of guilt that the episodes were because of something they either had or had not done and that they were to blame:
‘I'd have to say some of this is my fault … I know that I need to up my intake of fluids, so that I'm getting a good lot of fluid into me, so I'm passing fluid and flushing my kidneys is the way I tend to think of it. And I know that it’s not my strongest suit.’ (Int 14, 66–75 years, 3–5 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
Women also found it difficult that that the self-care advice they had received over the years had caused them to change actions or behaviours that they had been told could trigger UTIs, but it had made no difference to the recurrences:
‘I did go privately to a clinic when I was in my teens, and they said, “Drink lots of water, go to the toilet after intercourse and ... wipe from front to back”. So, I've constantly been doing those for years. I always implement them, but they’ve [UTIs] just never seem to have gone away.’ (Int 29, 36–45 years, 3–5 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
Emotional impact of seeking health care for rUTIs
In dealing with rUTIs, the women came into regular and frequent contact with their general practice and other primary care services. Their experiences had engendered a range of feelings about themselves as patients and towards seeking health care. Even when they perceived their general practices as supportive, women felt awkward about repeated requests for appointments:
‘And I think I feel a bit of a nuisance at times, but they're all very good about it.’ (Int 32, 56–65 years, 6 or more UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
For another woman, getting to know the primary care team was beneficial but did not entirely erase her sense of being a ‘pest’ or a ‘nuisance’ when she needed to be seen frequently:
‘I sometimes feel a bit of a pest … when they open the door and you think, “Ah, thank god it’s [name of GP]”, or “Thank god it’s the other lass”. As it’s them, I don’t need to explain anything because they know, but if it’s another one that I don’t know then you have to go through all the rigmarole again, you know … I feel like I'm a nuisance.’ (Int 22, 46–55 years, 1–2 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
Another participant described primary care encounters that had left her feeling that she had not been listened to, where her symptoms were dismissed, where a dipstick test had shown no infection to be present, and which had left her untreated:
‘They wanted me to bring in a urine sample. I'd drunk so much water in the morning and when I gave them a sample it was just clear … And then the next day like I couldn’t go to work because I literally just couldn’t get out of bed, and I called the doctors again and I went in and gave them another urine sample and it was just ... it was just horrendous, and they were like, “Oh, my gosh, I'm so sorry that we left you like this”. Sometimes I feel like I'm not listened to and they don’t really take much notice of it because I think they think, “Oh, she’s had them so many times”, … but it’s annoying when they don’t listen when I'm leaving in pain and they think, “Oh no, she’s fine” … these are my symptoms, they're like, “They're not the regular symptoms”, and I'm like, “Everyone’s different”.’ (Int 19, 19–25 years, 3–5 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
Being told she did not have a UTI made another woman call into question her lived experience, which in turn affected her self-belief:
‘Yeh, feel like very disheartened because like I know I've got a water infection; I'm adamant that I've got a water infection … then it makes me feel like, “Oh, am I wasting their time?” like there isn't anything wrong, it’s just me; maybe it’s all in my head, maybe I'm thinking too much about these water infections, is that why I'm getting them or is that why I feel like I'm getting them because then I'm really actually not.’ (Int 20, 19–25 years, 6 0r more UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
GPs’ lack of validation of the women’s experience of rUTI had resulted in some changing healthcare provider:
‘I was only in my thirties and they said that ... “There is nothing more we can do for you”, and they issued me with some incontinence tablet … at that point I left the surgery and I was crying, and said, “I'm not going back there”.’ (Int 21, 36–45 years, 3–5 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
For some women their feelings about consulting for UTIs meant that they avoided seeing their GP and adopted a stance of having to ‘deal with’ UTIs alone:
‘It was like always the last resort. I thought … it would just go and keep going and, you know, I always thought it was something I've just got to live with. You know, people have worse things than this and I just thought, “I've got to just keep going and dealing with it”.’ (Int 30, 46–55 years, 3–5 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
Thus, the interviews showed how contact with HCPs could be:
‘[...] quite demoralising actually because it can make you feel depressed because of the pain and because it’s constant when it happens that you feel like ... well, it’s just a water infection, go away, you know. That’s just how it makes you feel and it’s quite horrible actually.’ (Int 22, 46–55 years, 1–2 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)
This was not the case for all the women. This participant felt supported and appreciative when her GP knew about her recurrences and responded promptly:
‘Usually I can't get an appointment with my doctor … So, someone else checks it or they send it away, ... and then she gives me antibiotics straight away.’ (Int 16, 46–55 years, 3–5 UTIs in 6 months prior to trial)